Oh yes ladies and gentlemen, me and Ahubs (awesome husband) have come to a new level of closeness when I embarked his help to help me look at my goodies.
I ordered a plastic speculum online in an attempt to better visualize my cervix. See when you're at different stages during your cycle, you cervix will move around as well as open or close it's cervix hole. It's really hard to tell if that hole is open or closed with just your finger, and it takes time to figure out what is normal for you. Well, this gal doesn't have that kind of time so I needed to know, like now.
Plus, I've never seen a real cervix before. Sure, we had our standardized patient exams were we got to practice our genitourinary exam skills, but we still never saw the cervix. Our standardized patient started her cycle that very moment we were trying to see thangs, so everythang after that point was just a bloody mess. No cervix visualized. So I figured if I'm going to see a cervix, I might as well see my very own first.
|Nothing says love like a speculum exam|
I tried to do this on my own at first, I mean, I didn't want to creep out Ahubs. But after 2 attempts and 2 failures, I had to bring him in. Ahubs knows we are TTC (obviously), but he doesn't really like to know all the ins and outs of it. The OPKs, the checking CM, the crazy assortment of vitamins and "special" things I am taking, the way I've blocked out the bedroom light for "lunaception", etc. I guess are all sort of under the "girl" mystery to him.
So here's me, lying on the bed with my plastic speculum, lube, flashlight and mirror. There's Ahubs looking all freaked out. In the end, I found it! My cute little cervix hiding up there. It was so cool to see! I was grinning from ear to ear and so excited to see it. I kept telling him to adjust the light or the mirror or both so I could get a better look. How freaking awesome! Most women go their entire lives never getting a chance to see their cervix. This is the tiny little space that LIFE comes from. It's the door to the warm chamber that houses our babies. The place that our menstrual blood flows each and every month, it's the essence of our womanhood, our fertility. All of this, running through my head.
Ahubs: "Why are you so happy, this is weird."
Me: "well all of your reproductive organs are on the outside, I've never seen my cervix before"
Ahubs: "are we done yet, this is weird"
So there you have it everyone, the visualization of my cervix. It was low, closed and firm.
|My Cervix, Lady C.|
Want to see what a cervix looks like or get your own plastic speculum?
Look here for pictures http://www.beautifulcervix.com/
and here for your own plastic speculum http://www.fwhc.org/sale3.htm